MichaelaI spent so long pretending to be human
Learning to walk with my head up and
To speak the words I mean
Without choking on apologies
I'm still learning
I've only just taken off my shoes again
Reacquainting myself with nakedness
Little by little until my heart softens
And my skin grows less raw
There are days at a time I spend in tears
Letting out pain I hoarded Borrowing against happiness just to get by
It is still difficult to reach both arms out wide
A hot sun glistening white on gold sand Reaching to the sun crowned ocean, An ocean's-breadth East And to the feet of moon capped mountains A mountain's length West. There is no water Eagerly pursued,
My basket is full, filled, flowering, A rooted spark blooming bright Amidst hawthorn blossoms White as a bridal veil And I wind about the tree Like ribbons 'round a pole Weaving life within my body A
I got a nosebleed considering a TikTok about spanking. Telling me to make a mistake So I can learn new things, spread my wings, Set myself free into the privilege of trying. And all at once I was back